Can I or May I?

As a teacher, there are many different phrases you hear on a daily basis. Following is a conversation I overhear pretty often.

Student: Can I go to the bathroom?

Teacher: I don’t know, can you?

Student: *ugh* Maaaay I?

The first few times I heard this, I just laughed at the memories that it brought back from my years in school. After a few times, I started to think about the idea of “Can I” vs. “May I”. I realized that those of us that live with a chronic illness don’t have the luxury of asking, “May I”? Much of the time, we are forced to ask ourselves, “Can I?” For example, instead of asking, “May I go dancing with you?”, you are forced to ask, “Can I handle the dancing? Can I handle the pain the next day? Can I get home if I get hurt? Etc.” For those who have chronic pain or illness, the idea of “May I” may not even exist. However, it is important to remember that not all days are bad and that eventually you will have a day that you can ask, “May I?”

Remember zebras, enjoy the EveryDay Successes!

The Real MVP of Chronic Illness

Some of you probably read that and thought, “What? There is no MVP!?”, but I believe that we have to give credit where credit is due. The real MVP’s are those friends who stick with you through thick and thin. I have mentioned time and time again that you have to make cuts to your team; eliminate those who are toxic to your health, whether that be physically or mentally. But today we are discussing those that you wouldn’t trade for the world. These are your MVP’s. My MVP’s are the ones who never give up and always look out for me, sometimes too much, ha. MVP’s are friends who are willing to sit around and watch movies or play card games instead of going out because they know that you’re in pain, the ones who decide to pick you up without asking because they know that driving is painful for you, the ones who ask what you need before you even need something, the ones who can tell on your face (even though you’re smiling) that you are in pain. These are the people to hold close and love with all your might. These are your winning team and the ones who will get you to the championship. Every team has a few key players. They are as follows:

The Know It all: the one who knows you better than you know yourself and knows when you are hurting and what you need.

The Joker: The one who makes you laugh through the pain and brightens your day with the pure silliness they possess.

The Worrier: The one who worries about your safety. The one who makes sure that you are taking care of yourself as much as they feel you should.

The Tough Love: The one who tells you to suck it up when you need to. The one who makes sure that you are not a pity party of one.

These are are all essential parts of your team. Make sure to draft the right players and treat them with care because they help make you who you are. These players will be the back up you need to make it through all the difficult times and will help you conquer all the opposing teams. For those MVP’s reading, I love you so much and wouldn’t trade you for anything. You are my championship team.

P.S. Sorry I can’t pay you as well as the MLB. 😉

Making Connections

When you hear about EDS for the first time it is only natural to have questions. (I know I would have some.) One of my favorite questions to answer is, “What helps keep you sane?” The answer is simple: Connections.

Connections or people in your corner is the difference in a happy life and a miserable one. I personally have met people in person and online that have helped change my whole perception of the situation I was dealt. Those who are willing to listen and learn about the struggles I have and the good that comes from EDS are the ones I like to keep around. I have some great people in my corner rooting for me. Finding your cheerleaders can be the turning point in your diagnosis and survival. Now, this can also mean you have to make cuts to your team. I have also had to cut people from my “squad”. These people were cut for reasons such as unwillingness to understand or listen to my situation. Do I miss them? Sure. Am I better off? Probably. Cutting those who do not understand and do not seem to put in effort to try can be the hardest thing to do, but ultimately you will be happier and healthier. Spending your time and energy (which you have little of anyway) on someone who isn’t willing to give you a chance is not only physically damaging but mentally and emotionally scaring.

When choosing your team, make sure to pick those who are in it for the long haul and willing to help you along the way.

3 Hours of Sleep

With EDS or any kind of chronic pain comes Painsomnia. Painsomnia is when you are unable to sleep because of the amount of pain you are in. This happens pretty often and there are nights that I only get three hours of sleep. This makes day 3 hours of sleep in our Countdown to an EDS Christmas! Can’t believe there are only three more days!